Happy Happy Birthday to her!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Morgyn Turns 2
Our Sweet Morgyn Turned 2 on the 6th of Feb. It was a Sunday and we just celebrated as a family with a little cake. Which she could not keep her fingers out of. Not that I wanted her to. She thoroughly enjoyed it and the new tea set she got. Morgyn is such a joy in our lives. She is crazy! She is so much like her brother. She makes the same faces as he does and love to play rough with him. I think it must be because they spend so much time together. She also loves her new stroller Auntie Ashely got her. She always has to have a baby with her, she is a little Mommy just like Taylor. She is working toward potty training, talking alot and still in a crib which is new for us. She is loaded with personality and spunk. We just love our little Morgyn!
Happy Happy Birthday to her!
Happy Happy Birthday to her!
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Tearful Thoughts.
I don't think that this day will ever get any easier for me. I feel a little guilty at times that her birth mean so much to me. My other children are such great blessings and I adore them as much as I do her but I have a rough time on this day.
I was sitting here doing homework, working away writing a final essay, editing and posting it when I finally finished I dramatically burst into tears. Not because I stress, proud or finished but I looked at the time, right around 10:30, I remember the late hours of the day of her birth pretty well, even though they were such a blur. I guess I can't say I remember them well and that they were a blur but I do want to document what I do remember.
I remember them sending me out of the room, it was about 7:30 at this point, not giving me any information on what was going on, I remember the rocking chair I sat in, I remember sobbing not know what to do thinking I had failed that I had some how hurt my sweet baby girl. I remember the phones in the nursery ringing and ringing people seemed frantic yet I knew nothing, they just kept telling everyone on the line " we can't do it now, we are bagging a baby" I knew that baby was mine. I remember calling Josh, just barely, and waiting for him to return to the hospital. One thing I will NEVER forget, I have heard it clearly in my head many times in the last 2 years and I know I remember it because my husband believed it and he helped me to believe it was true, He never told me, she will be fine, he will get well he only told me that the lord was with her, he said this You have done your part as a mother, given our child the greatest give a mother can give her child, a body. It is part of the plan, it is what you were supposed to do. We continued to talk about the plan of salvation and that if we did loose our sweet Morgyn that we would be reunited with her again. That the lord was kind and he would comfort us. I knew that was true. His testimony that night was one of the sweetest things he has ever done for me, today at church my husband shared again his testimony, one of charity and service, his love for his family and love of church leaders, he honored me as his wife and shared his love for me and our family, I was so grateful I couldn't speak.
Next I remember the blessing Josh and My brother in law Brian gave Morgyn one of safety and comfort, they left her life and our heart in the lords hands. She was calm. She looked peaceful most importantly at that point she looked a little more pink. They then gave me a priesthood blessing of rest, peace and comfort. Josh then went to the other hospital with Morgyn, I stayed and went back to my room. I don't remember much after that until 4:16 the next morning I woke up to a baby crying and I cried but turned over to realize my sweet husband was back by my side there to comfort me trusting the lord that our children were in good hands. He was there for me.
I feel like I am terrible at expressing it but I love that man, he has stood strongly beside me through hard time and great times. He makes me laugh often, take most wonderful care of me and my children, I couldn't be more grateful or proud of the man he is.
I am truly grateful for my knowledge of the plan of salvation through the last 2 years especially the lord has continued to testify to me that he has a plan for each of us. We have agency but when we are to be called back to our savior we will return. There are many in heaven waiting for the gospel and many missionaries need there.
To those who have lost children, babies and loved ones
know the lord loves you, keep him close to you for comfort he will guide you through the tough times, he will show you the way to comfort. Know that there will be a time again that you will see those who have passed on. Trust in him that he will allow you happiness and that is indeed what he desires for you. I know we have a loving savior and I am grateful for him. In the name of our loving lord and savior Jesus Christ--- Amen
I was sitting here doing homework, working away writing a final essay, editing and posting it when I finally finished I dramatically burst into tears. Not because I stress, proud or finished but I looked at the time, right around 10:30, I remember the late hours of the day of her birth pretty well, even though they were such a blur. I guess I can't say I remember them well and that they were a blur but I do want to document what I do remember.
I remember them sending me out of the room, it was about 7:30 at this point, not giving me any information on what was going on, I remember the rocking chair I sat in, I remember sobbing not know what to do thinking I had failed that I had some how hurt my sweet baby girl. I remember the phones in the nursery ringing and ringing people seemed frantic yet I knew nothing, they just kept telling everyone on the line " we can't do it now, we are bagging a baby" I knew that baby was mine. I remember calling Josh, just barely, and waiting for him to return to the hospital. One thing I will NEVER forget, I have heard it clearly in my head many times in the last 2 years and I know I remember it because my husband believed it and he helped me to believe it was true, He never told me, she will be fine, he will get well he only told me that the lord was with her, he said this You have done your part as a mother, given our child the greatest give a mother can give her child, a body. It is part of the plan, it is what you were supposed to do. We continued to talk about the plan of salvation and that if we did loose our sweet Morgyn that we would be reunited with her again. That the lord was kind and he would comfort us. I knew that was true. His testimony that night was one of the sweetest things he has ever done for me, today at church my husband shared again his testimony, one of charity and service, his love for his family and love of church leaders, he honored me as his wife and shared his love for me and our family, I was so grateful I couldn't speak.
Next I remember the blessing Josh and My brother in law Brian gave Morgyn one of safety and comfort, they left her life and our heart in the lords hands. She was calm. She looked peaceful most importantly at that point she looked a little more pink. They then gave me a priesthood blessing of rest, peace and comfort. Josh then went to the other hospital with Morgyn, I stayed and went back to my room. I don't remember much after that until 4:16 the next morning I woke up to a baby crying and I cried but turned over to realize my sweet husband was back by my side there to comfort me trusting the lord that our children were in good hands. He was there for me.
I feel like I am terrible at expressing it but I love that man, he has stood strongly beside me through hard time and great times. He makes me laugh often, take most wonderful care of me and my children, I couldn't be more grateful or proud of the man he is.
I am truly grateful for my knowledge of the plan of salvation through the last 2 years especially the lord has continued to testify to me that he has a plan for each of us. We have agency but when we are to be called back to our savior we will return. There are many in heaven waiting for the gospel and many missionaries need there.
To those who have lost children, babies and loved ones
know the lord loves you, keep him close to you for comfort he will guide you through the tough times, he will show you the way to comfort. Know that there will be a time again that you will see those who have passed on. Trust in him that he will allow you happiness and that is indeed what he desires for you. I know we have a loving savior and I am grateful for him. In the name of our loving lord and savior Jesus Christ--- Amen
Monday, January 24, 2011
My Taylor Turns 6!
Happy Happy Birthday to my Sweet Taylor! This girl has grown in such an incredible way the last year we love her tender heart, mothering spirit and the love she shares so openly around our home. Taylor is currently in Kindergarten at Legacy Traditional School hear in Maricopa. She really loves to learn and loves making new friends. She LOVES getting to spend time doing anything physical with her grandparents and family She recently started Rock Climbing lessons and is doing great!
Taylor had her cousins over on her actual birthday and then she also had a friend party on Saturday. We had a "Tangled" themed Party where the girls Painted Rapunzel's walls, Hit the pinata with a frying pan, made frying pan necklaces and decorated Rapunzel's braid with lots of flowers. They had a great time!
Christmas Vacation and all that went along with it!
We got to go to Idaho for our Christmas Vacation for the first time in 7 years. It was full of mixed emotions. We had planned on going to Idaho on the Tuesday before Christmas to surprise my mom and Dad and get there a few days before we had told them we were coming. It ended up being a great blessing that we had planned to leave a few days early because Monday afternoon I got the devastating call that my Aunt Mary had lost her battle with Cancer. I have lost two of the most amazing women in my life in the last 6 months, it hasn't been easy but it has made me really cherish the women that I do have in my life. She fought with all her heart but in the end it was her time to go. I have had a hard time writing about this because there are so many regrets I have, so many things I wish I would have said long ago and I lost out on the opportunity. Her Children and husband and family did a wonderful job at the funeral, there were many laughs, tears and tender moments. Her kids have all written wonderful blog posts about her and given beautiful tributes that we will read often and I love them for sharing her with everyone.
After the funeral on Wednesday in Boise, we headed back to my parents place in Pocatello, It was a long few day in the car and the kids did WONDERFULLY we were really blessed by their Patience. We took the next couple days to get ready for Christmas and spend time with family. We spent Christmas Eve at Pier 49 helping my mom make pizza, do dishes and playing games. We also frosted cookies and Josh even delivered a few pizzas. We went home and spent Christmas eve night having a nice dinner and letting the Grandkids participate in a Nativity Scene, while Grandpa read the Christmas Story. It was fun for all. Christmas day was relaxing and fun letting kids run around and we took the Kids sledding, it was so COLD! I am not an Idaho girl anymore!!! Other things we did while we were in Idaho are:
Josh and Colin went Ice fishing
Played board games with family
Went to Lava Hot Springs (always a favorite)
I also got to go through a bunch of my Grandma's belongings and learn a little more about her which is always fun and special.
So after Idaho we head to Utah to spend time with Josh's Uncle Jeff and Aunt Becky they are always so sweet to welcome us to their home. On our way there we stopped at temple square and saw some of the sites and spent the day as a family. We arrived in South Jordan on the 30th and spent the 31st ( my birthday) there, The Hones made sure it was special for me, we played our favorite board games most the day and then Brianne and Brian arrived to spend New years eve with us! Mia and Taylor had a great time! It was fun for them to get to play together.
New Years day we headed home. We had such a fun fun fun almost 2 weeks away! It was rough getting back into the groove of things when we got home but I think we have finally done it.
Hope you all had a wonderful Holiday we sure did!
Happy 2011 to you all!
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